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Saturday, March 30, 2019

Spirit Soul & Body

1st Thessalonians 5:23

May your whole spirit, soul and body be kept blameless at the coming of our Lord Jesus Christ.

We are a Spirit

We have Soul

We live in a Body

We are a living, eternal spirit.  Our spirit will never die.  Our Spirit  is who we are.  When our body dies, our spirit will leave our body.  Our spirit, the true us, will either go to Heaven or Hell.  We will never die.

John 17:16

They are not of the world, even as I am not.

This is something to think about, if you are thinking  about Suicide.  You might leave this body, but you will never die.  When I first learned this.  I was like, "Oh crap."  Suicide was not going to solve my problem.  I will never die.  Something to think about.  Heaven or Hell is where we all will spend eternity.  It is your choice.

We have a soul, which is our emotions , thoughts, our mind.  But our brain is not our soul.  Our brain, is an organ.  Our brain is not coming with us.  It is part of the body.

We live in a body.  The body you have right now, whether you like or body or not, does not matter at all.  It is decaying.  Your body is not permanent.  When you die and leave your body, God will give you a new body, a perfect body

I have starved myself for the past 30 years, now as I am getting older, no matter what I do, my body is sagging, I am gaining weight even though I am not eating, and there is nothing I can do about it.

We need to take care of our body, so God can use our body, here on earth.

1st John 4:4

The one who is in you is greater than the one who is in the world

God created us.  We are his people.

Look around at your surroundings, your life.  This will all be gone one day.  The house you are working to pay off, the car that you are working to pay off, could all be gone tomorrow, by nature, fire, storms.  Your job might not be there tomorrow.

That is why we need to set our eyes on Jesus.  He dwells inside of us, once we accept Jesus as our Lord and Savior.  We move from darkness and into light. 

Jesus is the only way.

These are the last days, before Jesus comes back.  Make sure you know where you are going when you die Heaven or Hell.

When Jesus comes back, will you be Raptured Up or be left behind???

The Choice is yours.

These are the final days before the Rapture

Friday, March 29, 2019

In The Days Of Noah, Lot & Ourselves


Luke 17:26

Just as it was in the days of Noah, so also will it be in the days of the Son of Man

Luke 17:27

People were eating, drinking, marrying and being given in marriage up to the day Noah entered the ark, then the flood came and destroyed them all.

Luke 17:28

It was the same in the days of Lot. 

Luke 17:29

But the day Lot left Sodom, fire and sulfur rained down from the heaven and destroyed them all.

Luke 17:30

It will be just like this on the day the Son of Man is revealed.

Luke 17:24

For the Son of Man in his day, will be like the lightning , which flashes and lights up the sky from one end to the other, but first he must suffer many things and be rejected by this generation.

Today, we are living the same way they did in Noah's day.  God Flooded the entire earth because He was so disappointed in what He created.  He found Grace in Noah.

Sodom was just as bad as Noah's day.  God poured down fire and sulfur onto the town.

We are no different than the people of the past, maybe even worse.  Right down in the time we are living, we have also, turned our back on God.  Man marrying man. Drugs becoming legal. Having sex outside of marriage, abortion  and sex changes, so called Christians not going to church.  The seventh day is no longer Holy.  Everything is 24/7.  The smart phone is more important than God.  People can not live without their phones, but they think they can live without God.

Jesus is coming back for us.  We are living in the last hours before The Rapture.  Just as in the days of Noah, no one believed that a flood was coming.  Today, many to do not believe in the Rapture, the coming of Jesus. 

It has nothing to do with believing, it has everything to do with Faith in God. 

We need to stay focused on God, not on our smart phones.  We need to depend on God and not AI.

Take a look at your life.  What are you focus on?  Texts, social media, or God.

These are the last hours.  What are you going to do, before Jesus returns?

What are you going to do when you get left behind?

Jesus Is Lord.

Wednesday, March 27, 2019

Are You Cursed?

Deuteronomy 28:28:47-48

Because you did not serve the Lord your God joyfully and gladly in the time of prosperity, therefore in hunger and thirst, in nakedness and dire poverty, you will serve the enemies the Lord sends against you, He will put an iron yoke on your neck until he has destroyed you.

Wow!!

Since you did not serve God joyfully and glad when things were going good for you, you will be cursed.

It is easy to ignore God when life is good.  When you go on vacation and have not a care in the world, when you get that bonus at work or get promoted. 

Are you ignoring God when things are going good in your life?  Are you taking all the credit for everything good in your life?

Then when things go wrong in your life, are you blaming God???

If so, it is your fault, not God's. 

 Deuteronomy 28 tells you the Blessings of Obedience 28:1-14 (Which I read and declare over my life every morning)  Tells you the Blessings God will bestow upon you if you obey.

Deuteronomy 28: 15-68 Tells you what curses will come upon you for your disobedience.

So if your life is not going in the direction you want it to, Read Deuteronomy 28. 

Declare 28:1-14 over your life everyday and throughout the day.

If your are cursed, it is your fault.

If you are blessed, it is your fault.

The choice is yours.


Saturday, March 23, 2019

Humble Yourself Before The Lord

My bible--My God
When was the last time you asked God for something?

I am not talking about asking God for the lottery numbers or that He would give you a million dollars.

When was the last time, you were in trouble, desperate and just looked up, and said, "I have no idea what to do.  Just tell me how to get out of this mess?  I need you Jesus, I can not do this without you."

Have you ever prayed a prayer like that?

If not, then that is why you are in the mess you are in.

I have made my share of mistakes in the past.  I can be very stubborn.  I dig in my heels.  I will not budge no matter what will happen to me, even if I know that I am wrong,  I am stubborn.

Then I found myself, sitting in my truck, with all my personal belonging, homeless because I was to stubborn and I was going to do it my way and did not need anyone's help.

That got me homeless.

God pulled me out of the mess that I got myself into, because I humbled myself, before the Lord and knew from the depths of my soul that I can not do anything without God.

God found me a place to live.  When I walked into my new place, I got on my knees and thanked the Lord.  From that moment on, I know Jesus is my answer.

The other day, I was tired and sat in front of the tv all day.  I did nothing.  I knew that something was blocking me from writing.  I felt stuck and was not getting anywhere in my writing.  I knew that Satan was attacking me.  I knew I was not doing something God wanted me to do.  But didn't know what.

Before I went to bed, I prayed.

Dear Lord,  I know what you want me to do.  I am writing the books you told me to write, but I am not moving forward.  I feel stuck as if something is blocking me from moving forward.  I cannot do this on my own.  It is all you.  Please tell me what is blocking me, so Your Will be done and not mine.  Amen.

The next day, I was writing and the answer came to me.  The answer rose in my Spirit and I heard his voice, publish the 2 non-fiction books, so you will be able to move forward.

I had 2 non fiction books that I was working on, but not finishing them up to send to the editor.  I was just writing with no finish line in sight.

I went to God, knowing that I cannot do nothing without Him.  I humbled myself before the Lord.  I asked him what I needed and He answered my prayer.

God will do the same for you

Thursday, March 21, 2019

Floods and Cyclone Ida

Revelation 12:15

The serpent poured water like a river out of his mouth after the woman to sweep her away with a flood.

In the United States of America, there is major flooding in the Heartland.  Nebraska and Iowa.  Towns under water, will not be able to plant crops this spring.  A start of a famine.

Cyclone Idea flooded Mozambique, Malawi, and Zimbabwe

Indonesia has flooding from earthquake

Three major disasters throughout the world at the exact same time.  This is not by chance.  This is happening because we are living in the last days, before Jesus comes back

WE ARE LIVING IN THE LAST DAYS BEFORE THE RAPTURE

This has nothing to do with climate change.  The earth is dying, because of all the sin on the earth.  Satan is in control and he knows that his time is limited.

Get prepared now.  Start living God's way, before it is to late. 

These floods are a sign.  Jesus is coming.  You do not want to get left behind.

Repent and make Jesus your Lord and Savior. 

If you are already saved, start witnessing to others, so they can be saved and not left behind.

Christians, Wake Up.  Repent and start bringing others into the kingdom of God.  The Rapture is coming sooner than you think. 

The signs are here, now. 

You Will Be Persecuted

Matthew 5;44

But I say unto you, Love your enemies and pray for those who persecute you.

This is easier said than done, but it is a command from God.

Love Your Enemies

Pray for those who persecute you.

These are the last days.  Satan is going to use people againest you.

Ephesians 6:12

Our fight is not with flesh and blood.

We are not fighting our co-workers, our neighbors or our family.  Our fight is againest Satan.

When someone makes you mad or does something at work to lose that promotion, it is not that person, it is Satan using that person.

Christians are being Persecuted around the world, getting beaten, thrown in jail and even killed, because they believe in Jesus.

The United States, might not be as bad as other countries, but things have happened.  Example.  A bakery owner did not want to make a wedding care for a gay couple, (2 men getting married)
The owner was labeled a racist because it went againest his belief.  He was sued, and the case went to the Supreme Court.  He won the case, but people are still harassing him and his business, trying to get him to close the bakery.  He is being persecuted.

It is not that he is a racist, but because he believes what the Word of God believes.

The day will come when we all me persecuted and probably be killed in Jesus's Name.

Are you ready for that?  Are you strong enough to stand on The Word of God when you have to die for what you believe in?

In the United States of America, some who are running for president in 2020, wants the United States to become a Socialist County.  They want to take all our rights away and tell us what we can and can not do.

Christianity will be the first they attack.  They will not be able to control us if we believe in Jesus.  That is how China, Iran, North Korea controls their people.  They take away their hope.

That is why you must prepare yourself, now.  These are the Last Days Before the Rapture.  Are you ready to stand on The Word of GOD and die in His Name?

If you reject GOD, you will not be going to Heaven. 

What will you do when they pass a law to get the implant to buy and sell things or get on healthcare.  Will you take the implant and go the world's way or will you stand up and refuse the implant, because the Bible warns us not to take the implant.

Be prepared to live in these last days, Before The Ratpure.

Jesus is coming back.  Are you ready for the Rapture?????




Monday, March 18, 2019

Flooding In The Heart Land

WARNING WARNING WARNING

Nebraska is flooding, Iowa is flooding

THE HEART LAND OF AMERICA IS FLOODING.

THAT IS WHERE MOST OF OUR FOOD IS GROWN

LIVING IN THE LAST DAYS

When you go shopping for food, from this moment on.....Price of food is going to go up.  No way are they going to plant crops and be deliver to the store  this summer.

How prepared are you?

It is spring, start thinking about growing a garden tomato plants in a bucket if you have to.

There will be no corn, beans, tomatoes.  If there is any, the price is going to be high.

What are you going to do? 

No crops will be planted this spring. 

The Bible states that there will be famine.  The USA have never experienced a famine in my lifetime.  What are you going to do, if there is no food in the store?  Society will break down.

Start planting a garden, start thinking what and where you will go and do, when society breaks down.

This is where going to a church, where I just blogged an hour or so ago.  You will need the church to get you through this.

We don't have much time, before Jesus comes back.  But before He does come back, this world is going to get really dark.

What are you going to do?

Accept Jesus as your Lord and Savior

Dear Lord:

Please come into my heart.  I need you.  I believe that you died on the cross for me.  I believe that God raised Jesus from the dead.  Fill me with the Holy spirit.  I give you my life.  I don't want to live any longer with you.  Do something with my life.  Amen.

If you prayed this, you are now in the Kingdom of God and a child of God. 

Find a church, read the Bible.  These are the last days and the world is getting darker.

Look up to Jesus and not look to this world.


Church Is Not A Physical Building

Go To church

You have probably heard this all your life.  Need to go to church

A lot of my readers are from other countries and do not have the freedom to go to church like we do in the United States of America.

Even if you can not go to a physical church, that does not matter.  We are the body of Christ. We are God's Church, not the building.

God said that if 2 or more gather in His name, He will show up.

So if you have to gather by the river, in a cave at someone's house, God will show up.

I know that I would rather stay home, than go to church.  I can now watch Eagle Mountain Church on tv or the computer or phone, but it is important to gather with other believers.

Why?

These are the last days.  Take a look a round, watch the news.  Christianity is under attack.  Christians are being persecuted throughout the world.  The United States have had it good, being able to go to church and worship in the open. 

The question is:  How long?

The average Christian only goes to church once or twice a week.  They don't support a local church.  They say they believe, they have the fish sign on their car,f but they do not gather with other believers.

What are you going to do, if you wake up and the world is totally changed.  Churches being burned, Martial Law Enforced, Who are you going to turn to?  Who you going to call?  Your friends and family who do not believe?  The church that you never went you?

These are the last days.

I moved out in the country.  There is a small church about 2 miles from the road.  I went last Sunday.  It is a Baptist Church.  I walked in, only about 30 people were there.  A few came and introduced themselves to me.  Then yesterday, I knew I should go, but was tired and didn't want to go.  I knew that it was Satan who did not want me to go.  I had no reason not to go.  I just wanted to stay home.  God does not yell at us, like Satan does.  God gave us Free Will.  It is our choice.

I got in the car and went. I am so glad I did.  3 women came up to me and talked to me.  They said they were glad that I came back.  They welcomed me.  I could feel The Love of God in this small church, of true believers.  This is where I would go if something happened and I needed prayer or someone to talk to.

So I found my church.

Do I want to go to church?  No. 

Do I need to go to church?  Yes.

The world is getting darker.  Believers need to stand together, support each other, and be there for each other when the world persecutes us.  We need someone to stand with us.

Go To church.  It does not matter if it in a building or under a tree.

2 or more gather in God's name, He will show up.

Saturday, March 16, 2019

Thank-You Lord

How often do you say, Thank you Lord?

Thank You Lord for Your Love in the morning

Thank You Lord for Your Faithfulness at night.

You get all the credit

You get all the Glory

I dedicate this day to You

You are Source

You are my Provider

Jesus Is Lord

Amen.

You should thank God throughout the day.  For not only the big things, but also the small things.

Thank You Lord for my car starting.

Thank You Lord for my car.

Thank You for my  job

Thank You for loving me, before I loved you.

Thank You for Jesus

Thank Jesus for everything in your life, no matter how small or large.

Wednesday, March 13, 2019

Be Ready For The Rapture

1st Thessalonians 5:23

My God himself. the God of peace, sanctify  you through and through.  May your whole spirit, soul and body be kept blameless at the coming of our Lord Jesus Christ.  The one who calls you is faithful and he will do it. 

I read this scripture everyday. 

May your whole spirit, soul and body be kept blameless and the coming of our Lord Jesus Christ.

Jesus is coming back for us.  The Rapture can happen any day, any hour or any second.  We must be ready, there is no time to not be planning, preparing and looking up for Jesus in the clouds. 

The one who calls you is faithful and He will do it.

God is faithful and He will sanctify us through and through.

Has God told you to do something?  Has God given you an assignment?

Our time is limited before Jesus comes back.  If you do not want your loved ones to be left behind, it is up to you to start telling them and everyone you meet about your walk with Jesus. 

This world is dark now, it is going to get darker.  One day you are going to wake up and realize that the world has changed and it might be to late. 

So dust off your Bible.  I know that you can have the Bible on your phone, but what if there is now electric?  What if you drop your phone or it is stolen.

1. Get your hands on a Bible.  That is your connection to God.  You do not need the comforts of this world to read the Bible.  If you are not able to carry or conceal the Bible, rip out a few pages and put them in your pocket.

2.  Start memorizing the Bible, if you are arrested or Bibles get banned, you can recite the scriptures that you have memorized.  You might not think that will ever happen, one day you will realize that you were wrong.

3.  Go to church.  Don't care what others think.  You need to align yourself with other believers.  You need to start thinking like believers think.  The church is your life line as this world becomes darker.

4.  Pray, everyday, through out the day.  Pray as if you are talking to a friend or your mother or father.

5.  Start thinking of how you can live off the land.  When this world gets darker, you are not going to want to be in the city or the suburbs,  Buy some land, a few acres.  Raise chickens, a garden. even a pig. 

6.  Live the Simple Life.  You don't need a house.  A trailer or a camper.  The less bills you have, the more you can concentrate on what God is telling you to do.

7.  Ignore your non-believer friends.  They will not understand.

8.  Seek the Lord, every morning

9.  Give Thanks to the Lord throughout the day

10.  Make Jesus your source. 

Tuesday, March 12, 2019

Thy Will Be Done, Lord

I was watching an old Stephen King movie, The Stand. 

In the movie someone says.  "God did not bring you out here to create the Fee Zone or start an group.  He brought you here to do God's Will.  Will you Stand?"  Hence the Title of the Movie.

I was watching the movie and thought  "God did not move me out to the country, let me quit my job so I can sit in front of the tv and drink Pepsi and eat popcorn.  God has a plan for me.

Somewhere in the movie someone says  "I give you my will, Thy will be done, Lord.

It was as if God was talking to me through the movie.

I already know what I am suppose to do.  That is why I quit my job, so I can do God's Will.

Blogging is one of the things I am suppose to do.

So why am I watching a five hour movie? 

God was reminding me what I need to do.

What is God telling you to do?

Do you know what God wants you to do?

Are you going to do God's Will OR Continue to do whatever you want to do?

Time is short. We are living in The Last Days.  We do not have much time. 

Decide now before it is to late.  Thy Will Be Done, Lord, Amen

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Sunday, March 10, 2019

My Walk With Jesus

My Bible--My God 

Yesterday I blogged about writing your testimony to tell others and to remember what Jesus did for you.

The book My Bible--My God is my testimony and steps I took as I started my walk with Jesus.  I have been blogging here since 2013, (I Think)  But there was really no direction or running theme why I am blogging, then I would stop blogging for awhile then I would blog again.

Times have changed.  The last days are upon us and there is no time to waste.  This world is getting worse as In The Days Of Noah, when God was so mad at man that he told Noah to build the Ark.  He was around 500 years old.  It never rained back in those days, yet Noah believed in God and did what God told him to do.  He was probably attacked verbally and made fun of, Noah did what God told him to do.

As in the days of Noah, God gave me an assignment.  It is my choice to do it or not.

I quit my job.  I gave up a good job but I could not do what God told me to do and work at the same time.  So I walked away from a job that I worked 27 years at.

So I started blogging, not sure what to blog, so everyday I had to stare at the computer screen and think of something to write.

Yesterday, God told me what to write.   God Said.  "Write about your walk with Me.  Write Your Story."

Seems simple enough. 

So from on this blog is going to be about My Walk With Jesus.  My ups and downs with Jesus on by my side.

So join me as I walk with Jesus. 

Saturday, March 9, 2019

Write Your Testimony/Revelation 12:11

Revelation 12:11

And they overcame him by the blood of the lamb, and by the word of their testimony, and they loved not their lives unto the death.

We are living in the last days before the Rapture, before Jesus comes back.  Things are going to get worse,  In this scripture, it says we overcame Satan by the blood of Jesus and the word of their testimony.

If you have accepted Jesus as your Lord and Savior, then you have a testimony.

Your testimony is how and why you decided to give your life to Jesus. 

Your testimony does not have to be 100 pages long.  It can be in 2-3 sentences, a page or two or however long you want to write it.

This verse says they overcame Satan by the word of their testimony.

You need to write down your testimony.  Memorize it, so you can tell others or tell Satan whenever he is bothering you.

Example:

I stood at death's door.  I was one step from ending my life, until Jesus came and pulled me from death's door.

This is an example of one sentence of why I gave my life to Jesus.

Example:

I was alone for the first time in 42 years.  I don't want to be alone.  I would rather die.  So one night I decided this was the night to die.  I have been sexually abused by my grandfather and my family knew all about it.  It was not a secret.  I had an eating disorder, abused liquor, and I was cutting myself.  I was a mess.  I always knew there was a God.  But where was he when I was being sexually abused?  I have no talent or skills.  I'm divorced, alone and just want a drink of liquor.  What is wrong with me.  So this will be the night.  Then something happened, Jesus came and visited me.

So here is a longer testimony, a bit more detail.

I have this memorized and I can witness to any one in 30 seconds or a couple of minutes.

There is someone out there, waiting to hear your story.

You don't have to be a writer to write your testimony.  But your testimony saved your soul.  Your testimony will save other souls. 

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Thursday, March 7, 2019

Anti-Christ is Alive & The Mark Of The Beast Is Here

I believe that we are living in the last days before the Rapture.  We do not know the day or time of the Rapture.
Some people say that it will be after the Anti-Christ comes into power, others say that Jesus will come before the Anti-Christ and the Mark of the Beast.

No one knows for sure.  The Bible tells us to be alert and ready.

People, even Christians are not alert and ready.  Everyone is addicted to their phones, staring at the phone while, walking, driving, and even using it to pay for items.

To me, this is one step closer to the Mark of the Beast.

There is a Congress Woman  who is Muslim and everyone is shocked that she is Anti- Israel.  She is getting a lot of air time.  Americans voted for a Muslim.  Times are changing.

Free Speech is being threatened.  If anyone in favor of the president of the USA, the leaders tell them to beat them up.

Illegal aliens crossing the US/ Mexican Boarders and some Leaders say let them all in.

This county is divided and will never come together.  USA will succumb to One World Leader and One World Currency.

Look around.  Countries are collapsing.  Technology is taking over.

Churches are closing everyday.  Even Christians don't go to church all the time.

I watched a video on You Tube  "As The Days of Noah"  No one believed a flood was coming.  It never rained back then.

We are in the days of Noah.

So the question:  Are you ready to stand of to the Anti-Christ and not receive the Mark of The Beast, if Jesus does not return and as we hope OR will you give in and follow the World as Satan rises to power?

The choice is Yours.  I believe that the Anti-Christ is already here, waiting to take his place in the world.

I believe that Jesus is coming back and we will all be Rapture up into Heaven.

I believe what the Bible says and I am willing to die before I receive the Mark of The Beast or bow to the Anti-Christ.

Decide now before it is to late.  You may wake up one morning and the entire world has changed. 

What are you going to do?


Wednesday, March 6, 2019

Press Toward The Mark

Philippians 3:13-14

Forgetting those things  which are behind and reaching forth unto those things which are before

I press toward the mark for the prize of the high calling of God in Christ Jesus.

This is my go to scripture when Satan reminds me of my past.

I can not go forward if I remain in the past.

We all have a past, bad memories terrible things that have happened to us, but into over to do what God created us to do, we must forget our past and press on toward the future. 

It is easier said than done, and I do struggle with this, but I know what God has called me to do and I am going to see it through.  Satan is not going to stop me this time. 

I am going to press toward the mark.

What about you?  You going to press on toward the mark which God called you to do>

Tuesday, March 5, 2019

Hear The Voice Of God

I hear God's voice.  I have told people that God told me to do this or that, and they look at me as if I am crazy.

I have just quit my day job, in order to stay home, homestead my property and to concentrate on God's writing ministry he told me to do.

I know that God told me to quit my job.  I felt it to the core of my being.  I kept changing the date of when I was going to quit my job this year.  First I was going to quit in August, then in June, I quit in February.

Once I stopped trying to figure it on my own, I prayed and asked God to tell me when to quit.

I heard God told me to quit.  I heard his voice.  Also something happened at work, that stressed me out, I was so upset, and once I stopped trying to figure it out myself, and stepped aside, I heard God and he told me to quit.  I went to work, told them and am now stress free. 

In order to hear God"

1.  Stop trying to do it yourself.

2.  Pray, and give it to God.

3.  Wait and do not worry, rethink or talk about it to others.

4.  When you know the answer is from God, just do it.

5. If you feel that it is right down in the core of your being, take the step of faith and let God led you.  Fear Not.

6.  Start talking and acting like it has happened.

When I decided to quit my job, fear tried to sneak in.  I only gave one week's notice.  I forgot that I prayed and asked God to tell me when to quit.  Once I remembered, I knew that it was God's answer.

So what are you stressing about?  What do you did God to help you with?  I am not talking about a million dollars  or to get new neighbors.

If you need help and we all need God in our life.  You need to stop doing everything yourself and to step aside and let God work in your life.

Once you pray and ask God for whatever you need.  DO NOT go and tell everyone.  Do Not try to do something to help God.  Do Not talk about and get on with your life and let God work in your life.  If you keep talking about it and do something about what you asked about.  GOD can not move in your life, if you are in the way.

When I was trying to figure out when to quit, I talked and planned what I would do after I quit.  I told co-workers that I was not going to be here much longer.  My time is limited. 

I also talked to myself.  I would say, "I am so done.  I no longer am employed.  I am self-employed and am blogging and book sales are up."  I said this to myself everyday and though out the day.  I didn't tell anyone.

What you tell yourself is so important. 

You can hear from God.  God can move in your life if you will step aside and trust in the Lord.

I have a plaque on the wall:

Psalms 46:10

Be still, and know that I am God.

Sometimes, you need to sit, be quiet and know that God is  moving in your life.

God is moving in my life and He will move in your life. 



Saturday, March 2, 2019

I survived Sexual Child Abuse by Forgiving

I survived Sexual Child Abuse
I do not remember my childhood.  My family does not believe me.  They think that I am making it up to get attention.  My grandfather sexually abused me from the time my mother handed me over to him, as if I was a sacrfice for the family.  My mother knew what she was doing, when she forced me down the grey painted concrete steps that led to the dark damp basement, where no one could hear my screams or just ignored them.

This is a picture of me.  I look like any normal child, but I was being molested by my grandfather on a regular  basis.  Because of this I have developed an eating disorder since grade school.  I still have food issues to this day.  I abuse alcohol and have cut myself for years.  I am OCD, have panic attacks and can not be around people.  I have been suicidal most of my life.  I am a mess,

Until I met Jesus

How I learned to move on  In Print and E-Book

I will say, this is a process.  For me nothing happened overnight.  Once I learned the Love of GOD and what Jesus did for me at the Cross, I knew I have never been alone and that GOD Loved me before the creation of the world.

Jesus is the reason I am still alive.  Jesus Is why I can talk about my past.  Jesus is why I have forgiven my family, even though they don't deserve to be forgiven.

GOD has forgiven me, even though I don't deserve it.

If GOD can forgive me.....Then I can forgive my family.

I have forgiven my family but that does not mean that I have to see them or talk to them.  I forgave them, and moved on.

It is not easy.  The pain and hurt may never leave, but least now I know Jesus and that GOD created me for a reason and a purpose.  

So whatever you are going through or what went on in your past.  Forgive, is the first step to getting on with your life.  If you do not forgive, you will be stuck in the past, in emotional pain, being mad all the time, and wanting revenge on people that have done you wrong.

Once you forgive, you will have a weight lifted off your shoulders. and feel free of that burden.

You do not have to forgive in person.  I did not.  I wrote each family member a letter and then I prayed this:

Dear Lord,
I know that you sent Jesus so all my sins could be forgiven.  Jesus died on the Cross for me.  My sins are forgiven because of Jesus.  Lord, if you can forgive me, I can forgive whoever has done me wrong.
So I forgive ___________________  and whoever else has done me wrong.  In Jesus's Name, Amen.

I now forgive everyone.  When I pray, I forgive if I have ought againest anyone.  

So if you want GOD to move in your life....Forgive and let the Love of GOD flow in your life.