Suicidal -Suicide Does Any One Care?

I know now that Jesus will never leave me nor forsake me.

Most of my life I just wanted to die.  I had  a deep dark hole that went to the core of my being.  Nothing would fill the hole.  No amount of alcohol.  I starved myself.  I abused over the counter medicine.  I was waiting to die.

Once I started cutting myself, I discovered away to release the pain.  I had to cut myself just to leave the house.  I cut myself several times a day.  waiting to die.

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This is my latest book.  I never talked about my Suicidal thoughts or cutting myself.  So if you are dealing with Suicidal thoughts I want you to know that you are not alone.  You have never been alone. Jesus is the Answer.

I have walked in the darkness most of my life.  You don't have to .

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GOD is Love.  Love is GOD

We All Have a Testimony

imony We all have a story..  We all have had pain and heartache in our lives.  We all have a past.

We have a story to tell to someone who might benefit from your mistakes or dreams.

I have a testimony that I don't like to talk about.

I isolated myself from the world, because I was waiting to die.  I was sexually abused by my grandfather.  I buried the pain and memories.  I had a deep black hole that went to the core of my being.  The pain was great. The pain I couldn't explain.  So I developed an eating disorder.  At one time I weighed less than 90 pounds.  I started drinking.  I do like my vodka and wine.  That only numbed the pain.  The pain was getting words and suicide thoughts were taking over my life.  I then started cutting myself.  several times a day.  Not deep cuts, I told myself.  just enough to bleed, and release the pressure that was building up inside of me.

No one noticed the cuts on my arms at work or they didn't care.  I went home and barricaded my self.  I blocked the doors, so no one could get in. I duct taped all the window so no one could get in.  I became a prisoner in my own home and I liked it.  It was safe.  I planned on die alone in the bathtub.

Then one night while cutting myself in the bathtub, I had a visit from Jesus.  I was going to cut my self deeper and bleed out.  I had two days off work.  No one would be looking for me, until I didn't show up for work.

Jesus stood by the tub and asked me what I was doing?

I felt His love surround me and I dropped the knife.

 I have never told anyone of this until now.  I felt His love.

That night my life changed.  It wasn't like I changed over night.

I have been listening to Satan for 40 years, now I wanted to know what Jesus had to say.  I started listening to Jesus and my life began to change.

I have a testimony and I will be silence no longer.

You have a testimony, when will you tell your story.

Someone is out there that needs your story.

If you are Born Again, you have a testimony that only you can tell

Suicide Is Not The Answer. Jesus Is The Answer  Is my new release on whatever your problem is Jesus has the answer.

My Bible--My GOD The first book I publish about the steps I took to get closer to Jesus

It is time that we tell our story and help others.  Jesus healed us, We found Jesus We have to help others to find their way to Jesus.

Your Past Does Not Define You

Pray! Pray! Pray! Depression No More

I suffer from depression.  I have been a cutter.  I have cut myself more times than I will admit.  I starve myself for many years.  It is easy to wallow in self loathing.  I would curl up under the covers in bed and wait to die.  That is the easy thing to drink.  Drink away my problems.  Cut myself, abuse over the over the counter medicine.

But Jesus died on the Cross for you and me.  Jesus went to the pit of Hell and fought Satan.  So we can live and walk in the Blessing.

But in order to walk and live in the Blessing, I need to make Jesus the center of my life.  I have to look up.  I have to pray, talk to GOD.  Believe and Receive.

If I am always looking at myself and my problems, nothing will change.  I have to take my eyes off of myself and look to Jesus.  Look to others and not myself.

That is not an easy thing to do.  I would rather ly in bed and wait to die.

I am on no medicine and have no doctor.  Jesus gives me the strength I need to get through the day.  I am strong in the Lord and His might.

If you feel you need to see a doctor, go ahead.

The reason I am alive is because of what Jesus did at the Cross. 

So if you are not having a good day, look around and do something for someone else.  A smile, open the door for someone.  buy someone's lunch.  Go visit your neighbor. 

PRAY!  Talk to GOD.  He is there waiting for you.

The first thing I do when I wake up is thank GOD for His love in the morning and His faithful at night.

Pray throughout the day.  Believe and Receive.

GOD already knows what you are going through.  GOD can not do anything, unless you start looking to him and start talking to him. 

It is simple.  GOD is waiting to hear from you.

You are depressed, because you are looking at yourself and not GOD.  It might not happen over night, but you will notice your life will get better, day by day.  You were created by GOD.  He wants you to be Blessed. 

This blog is about my walk with GOD.  The everyday struggles and the everday Blessings.  I walk with GOD everyday.

God Is With You, Even When You Ignore Him

Your Past Does Not Define You

Attacked By Satan

Satan attacks me everyday.  Every second of every hour of every day.  That is what Satan does.  Jesus went to the Cross and defeated Satan.

We must take a stand against Satan.

I use the word Satan and not the word, devil.  Because Satan is alive and well and is looking around for someone he can terrorized.

We are listening to Satan or to GOD.

Example:

Satan has been hitting me hard.  I had a bad day yesterday, I just wanted to crawl under the covers and cry.

Did I?  NO!

I stood in my bedroom and this is what I said, or rather yelled.

Satan!  Jesus defeated you at the Cross.  You have no power over me.  You are under my feet.  I am covered by the Blood of Jesus.  I rebuke you Satan.  I no longer listening to you.  I have the mind of Christ and Christ sees me Holy and Blameless in His sight.  I am walking in the Blessing.  Satan you get out of my life!

I said that last night and when I woke up this morning.

I went to print something out on my computer.  It ate the paper.  I attempted to fix it.  It didn't work. 

So I pleaded the Blood of Jesus over my printed.  I told Satan to get under my feet, because I am covered in the Blood of Jesus. 

My computer worked.

I am telling you that if you are being attacked by Satan, you need to start yelling at you and telling Satan who you are in Christ  Discover Who You Are In Christ

If you let Satan in your mind, you have to stop listening to him.  Tell Satan that you have the mind of Christ and start quoting the Bible.

It works, but it takes practice.

If you do not speak GOD's Words, then you are opening the door to Satan.  If you are speaking lack, sickness, fear, you are not speaking GOD's Word and you just opened the door to Satan.

Think Before You Speak  Change your words, change your life.

Everyday you are being attacked by Satan, you need to get prepared to be in battle with Satan.  I know that I am writing a memoir on my life of being sexually abused by my grandfather and I feel that Satan is attacking me because he does not want me to write or publish this book.

I have to battle Satan or I will sink back into my depression, end up in bed with the covers over my head waiting to die.  I have done that most of my life.

It was not until the past few years, that I have been fighting Satan and winning. 

So no matter what you are going through in your life, sickness, lack, depression, life in general.  You must know that Jesus is the only one that can change your life, if you are willing to battle against Satan.

Leave a comment and let me know how you are battling Satan

Jesus Died On The Cross For You

Do you go to church?  Do you pray?  Do you think about GOD throughout the day?  If not, Why???

Is your life going in the direction that you hope it will go?  Are you in debt?  Do you hate your job?

What are you doing to change your life for the better? 

Do you even know how to change your life?

JESUS is the answer.  Have a question?  Jesus has the answer.

I am not perfect.  I have issues like you.  I am not going to say that your life will change tomorrow, but what I will tell you is that if you start focusing on what Jesus did at the Cross and start making him the center of your life. Your life will change.

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Shows how the Bible changed my life.

I look to the cross, knowing that Jesus died for me.  He carried all my sins and sickness on him.  He went to the pit of Hell and defeated Satan for you and me.

It does not matter where you are in your life.  It doesn't matter what part of the world you live in, Jesus knows who you are and what your needs are. 

Jesus knows what you have done and what you are going to do. It is not a surprise to Him. 

Stop listening to the world.  Stop worrying and look to Jesus and give him all your problems and let him be in charge of your life.

Pray This:

Dear Lord:

I come to you as a sinner.  I am not worthy of you.  You died on the Cross for me. You carried my pain, my sickness, my worries.  You suffered for me died for me.  You went to the pit of Hell for me.  You rose from the dead on the third day.  Come into my heart.  I accept you as my Lord and Savior.  Do something with my life.  Jesus is Lord.  Jesus is Lord over my life.  In Jesus's Name, Amen.

If you prayed this prayer, you are Born Again.

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Jesus changed my life and Jesus will do the same for you.

GOD The Healer

BY HIS STRIPES YOU ARE HEALED

Jesus died for you.  Jesus died for me.  If you were the only one left on earth, Jesus would of gone to the Cross for you.  GOD Loves You.

GOD can be your healer, but you have to let Him into your life.

Are you sick?  Are you battling an depression, suicide or a physical illness?

I battled an Eating Disorder for years.  I wanted to die.  I started cutting myself, hoping, wishing, wanting the emotional pain to go away,  The pain was so deep, it was like a black hole into the core of my being.  I didn't go around talking about.  Who would believe me?  I suffered in silence.  I starved myself for over 30 years, waiting to die.  It didn't happen.  I would wake up and think "Crap, I am still alive."  I would take over the counter medicine to make me go to sleep, hoping that I wouldn't wake up.  I was not eating.  I was sleeping all the time.  The only time I was a wake was when I went to work.  I had cuts on my arms, dark circles under my eyes.  I weighed less than 100 pounds.  Waiting to die.  I had a cancer scare, as some would call it.  I wanted the cancer, something to kill me.  It wasn't cancer.  I was disappointed.

There had to be a reason I was alive.  I had to have a purpose.

This little girl that has suffered from sexual abuse, eating disorder and cutting herself, there had to be a reason, but what was it.  I had no idea, I was to busy wanting and waiting to die.

Then someone gave me a Bible and I heard the voice of GOD "Read it"

The Bible changed my life.  It didn't happen over night.  But the days got better and I began to see light instead of darkness.

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I still had an eating disorder, I couldn't eat.  I do not get hungry anymore.  I go from feeling fine to being nausa to throwing up.  I learned to eat by the clock, something, anything to put in my stomach even that is just a cracker.  My eating disorder has nothing to do with food or dieting.  www.amazon.com/dp/B00X3EBXX8  It is an emotional, mental thing that only GOD can cure.  Doctors can;t.  They can prescribe pills, but it won't cure you, they can feed you with a tube, but it won't cure you.  They can put you in the hospital but it won't cure you, GOD is our Healer, Only GOD can heal you.

So if you are battling with depression, an eating disorder, cutting yourself, drug abuse or an illness, Only GOD  can heal you.

Jesus healed me.  I accepted Jesus as my Lord and Savior and then I was Baptized in Cotter Springs.  I am Healed By The Stripes Of Jesus.

Jesus can do the same for you.

Accept Jesus as your Lord and Savior:

Pray This:

Dear Lord,
I come to you broken, lost and a sinner.  Come into my heart.  I believe that Jesus died on the cross and rose from the dead on the third day.  I believe that Jesus died for me.  Take me as I am and do something with my life.  Jesus is Lord.  Amen.

If you prayed this prayer, you are now Born Again.  You are a new creature in Christ and Christ dwells in you.  Leave a note in the comment and let me know.  I want to celebrate with you.

Leave a comment if you are lost, hurting, or looking for Jesus.  Jesus is the Answer to all your questions and problems.

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Holiday Depression & Suicide

Thanksgiving Day, Christmas, New Year's Eve & New Year's Day

It is overwhelming and enough to make you jump off the bridge and end it all.

Jesus was born on Christmas to give us Hope and to Save us.

Don't let this world win.  GOD LOVES YOU!

To be honest, I do not like the holidays.  I do not join in on Thanksgiving dinner.  I don't go into debt for Christmas.  I don't even decorate for Christmas.  It is not in the Bible, to put a tree in your house.  The Bible says to borrow from none, but be a lender to many nations.  Deuteronomy 28:12 Everything the world does for the holidays are not in the Bible.

The reason for Christmas is to celebrate the birth of Jesus.

I know it can be a hard time if you do not come from a loving family, If you don't have someone to celebrate the holidays with.  A few years ago, I was severely depressed.  I was alone.  For Thanksgiving and Christmas, I took cold medicine, alot of cold medicine and slept through those days.  I was not awake for Christmas or Thanksgiving.  I didn't want to be around people who were happy and life was great.  I wanted to die.  In fact, I did that for about 3 years.  This time of year is very hard for me.  I get depressed.  All the Christmas music, everyone is happy on television.  I just want to crawl back into bed and wake up when it is all over.

That is not what GOD wants us to do.  Stop listening to the world

Look up to Jesus and what He did at the Cross.

Look around, find someone who is in need.  Fill that need.

I learned that my neighbors had no food in their house.  I couldn't believe it.  They work everyday, but having trouble paying their bills.  I bought them a gift card.  After I left, they went to the store and bought food.

I stopped looking at myself and started looking at others.  I felt good for doing that, and I also helped someone.  GOD has a plan for me.  GOD has a plan for you.  You are here for a reason Jeremiah 29:11 For I know the plans I have for you.  Plans to prosper you not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.

Don't let Satan win.

I struggle with this every year.  I can be with friends and ones that love me and I still want to crawl under the covers.  I don't because GOD loved me before the creation of the world Ephesians 1:4

So when things are getting to you, Look up.  Talk to GOD.  Give GOD your problems.  Do Something nice for someone.

GOD Loves You!!!