I survived Sexual Child Abuse by Forgiving

I survived Sexual Child Abuse
I do not remember my childhood.  My family does not believe me.  They think that I am making it up to get attention.  My grandfather sexually abused me from the time my mother handed me over to him, as if I was a sacrfice for the family.  My mother knew what she was doing, when she forced me down the grey painted concrete steps that led to the dark damp basement, where no one could hear my screams or just ignored them.

This is a picture of me.  I look like any normal child, but I was being molested by my grandfather on a regular  basis.  Because of this I have developed an eating disorder since grade school.  I still have food issues to this day.  I abuse alcohol and have cut myself for years.  I am OCD, have panic attacks and can not be around people.  I have been suicidal most of my life.  I am a mess,

Until I met Jesus

How I learned to move on  In Print and E-Book

I will say, this is a process.  For me nothing happened overnight.  Once I learned the Love of GOD and what Jesus did for me at the Cross, I knew I have never been alone and that GOD Loved me before the creation of the world.

Jesus is the reason I am still alive.  Jesus Is why I can talk about my past.  Jesus is why I have forgiven my family, even though they don't deserve to be forgiven.

GOD has forgiven me, even though I don't deserve it.

If GOD can forgive me.....Then I can forgive my family.

I have forgiven my family but that does not mean that I have to see them or talk to them.  I forgave them, and moved on.

It is not easy.  The pain and hurt may never leave, but least now I know Jesus and that GOD created me for a reason and a purpose.  

So whatever you are going through or what went on in your past.  Forgive, is the first step to getting on with your life.  If you do not forgive, you will be stuck in the past, in emotional pain, being mad all the time, and wanting revenge on people that have done you wrong.

Once you forgive, you will have a weight lifted off your shoulders. and feel free of that burden.

You do not have to forgive in person.  I did not.  I wrote each family member a letter and then I prayed this:

Dear Lord,

I know that you sent Jesus so all my sins could be forgiven.  Jesus died on the Cross for me.  My sins are forgiven because of Jesus.  Lord, if you can forgive me, I can forgive whoever has done me wrong.

So I forgive ___________________  and whoever else has done me wrong.  In Jesus's Name, Amen.

I now forgive everyone.  When I pray, I forgive if I have ought againest anyone.  

So if you want GOD to move in your life....Forgive and let the Love of GOD flow in your life.

Healed By The Stripes Of Jesus

I was sexually abused by my Grandfather and my entire family knew about it and did nothing to protect me.  I had to learn to forgive if I wanted to survive. In this book I tell how you and survive your past and learn to forgive who had done you wrong www.amazon.com/dp/B00X5080MW

Once you are born again, you have acess to GOD through Jesus.  No be a victim any more.

Being sexually abused I suffered from depression, eating disorders and wanting to die.  I only survived by the Grace of GOD.  Read how GOD healed me www.amazon.com/dp/B00X3EBXX8

All things are possible with GOD.

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Sexabuse Is Not Your Fault.

I was sexually abused as a child, before I was in grade school.. I am not sure how old I was when it started.  My grandfather abused me throughout my entire life untill his death.  My Bible--My GOD www.amazon.com/dp/B006N0ZDGW was the first book I published in print and as an e-book.  It tells my story of how GOD helped pull me out of the pit that Satan threw me into. 

I am only alive and able to tell my story by the grace of GOD.  I am alive to help others and to tell my story.  I had an eating disorder.  Problems with alochol.  Emotional problems and at the end I started cutting myself.  All because I was sexually abused.

IT IS NOT YOUR FAULT!!!

Stop feeling guilty about what happened.  It is not your fault.  I know I hid this secret most of my life.  it is only now that I am older that I can begin to speak out, tell my story and help others. 

I learned how to forgive.  I learned how to move on with my life.  My past does not define me.

YOUR PAST DOES NOT DEFINE YOU.

GOD loves you.  GOD is with you right now.  GOD's Spirit is with you right now.  You are not alone.

My newest book  101 Daily Bible Confessons  www.amazon.com/dp/B012LG98GM  Might help get you started to realize how much GOD Loves You.

I Survived Sexual Abuse www.amazon.com/dp/B00X5080MW shows how I survived and what you can do to move forward with your life. 

I have told my story to others and always they confess that they have been sexually abused or know someone who has been sexually abused.

You are not alone.  If you don't feel like you have a voice, I am your voice.  I will speak for you

I will no longer stay quiet.  I will tell my story no matter what the cost. My family does not believe me nor do they care.  I am moving forward.  You are not alone.

E-mail me at livegodswaydaily@gmail.com

or write me at
 P.O. Box 486
Mountain Home, AR 72654

Dont be a victim any longer.  You life starts today and GOD Loves You