God Loves You

Ephesians 1:4

For he chose us in Him before the creation of the world.

This scripture saved my life.

I don't remember much from my childhood.  I knew that something had to of happened in my childhood, but what I didn't know.  My mother doesn't believe me when I say, I do not remember my childhood.  She tells me to get over it.  So I know she knows something.

I have been suicidal in the past, just waiting to die.  Why was I born into this family?  (Think I am the only person that wished they were adopted and then that would explain alot)

Something happened to me during my childhood that I blocked out.  I abused over the counter medicine.  I abused alcohol and suffered from an eating disorder.  I was ready to die.

Then went I started reading the Bible.  and realized and believed that God knew me, before He created the world.....That was a game changer.

I was not a mistake.

I was created for a purpose.

I am part of God's plan

I had a reason to live.

I had a reason to believe God.

I have a purpose in life.

I can not kill myself or I will never fulfill my purpose on earth.

I believe God Loves me.  I am not a mistake and neither are you.

Wherever you live, whatever you are going through, God has a purpose for you.  Don't give up.

There was a man who was active in the church I went to.  He played the drums during the worship.  He worked out.  He had a family.  He was one of the nicest guys I ever met.  From the outside, he had everything going for him.  Then one day, he killed himself.

I was shocked and sadden to say the least.  Why?  We all have demons that we are fighting, that is a fact considering that we live in a sinful world controlled by Satan. 

Whatever the reason why he did what he did, saddened me, and upset me.  He had a gift.  He played drums and was good at it.  I looked forward to him playing on Sundays.  God gave him a gift.

Then I started thinking about myself.  Why am I still here?  Why haven't I killed myself and he killed himself.  What is the difference between him and me?  I don't know.  I wish I knew. 

So as I sit here blogging.  I know why I am still alive.  I reach people from all over the world, blogging. 

It is written.  "Go ye into the world and preach the gospel."

That is my purpose in life.  I might of had something terrible happen in my childhood, and God can make it work for good.

If I can help one person, If I can lead someone to Jesus, I can write my testimony and tell my testimony then I am doing what I was born to do, to preach the gospel.

So know that no matter what you are going through, no matter what is going on in your life. 

GOD LOVES YOU  Nothing will ever change that.

Live for Jesus.  Tell everyone your testimony.  Make Satan tremble as you start each day and do what God has called you to do, because no matter what GOD LOVES YOU